Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Not so bad

All that worrying about my week off actually was for nothing. I strayed from WW for my week of vaca and low and behold, I LOST a quarter of a pound! Ok, Ok, so it's not major, but the point here is that I didn't gain the 4 pounds I thought I did. So, woo hoo for me!!!

NOW! As for this week...Why is it that you (me) do nothing but eat and eat and feel like I am starving when my friend visits? Sorry to get so personal, probably a little TMI, but I really would like to know. I am absolutely famished this whole week, and have been eating everything in sight. So now, AGAIN, I fear the scale.

You know I am doing FABULOUSLY at this maintaining thing, although my goal is to lose more, and I am totally sucking at it. Am I obsessing? Should I just let it go, and rejoice an be happy with what I have done? Honestly, all I really want is to lose 3 more pounds! 3 more! That's it! Because that'll put me at 100 pounds even. THEN, I can say ok, I'm done, and rest easier. Is that too much too ask?

I don't know. I'm babbling trying to waste time at work so I can get the heck out of here and go home and eat something. :)

I will check in later, maybe post something if I find anything interesting to talk about. Talk to you then...

Monday, August 11, 2008


Sorry to be away so long. My hubby and I were on vacation, though we didn't exactly go anywhere, we didn't have to go to work. However, I took a break from WW for the week too, which isn't a great idea. Now I am absolutely positively sure I gained a few this week, and will have to work double hard this week to get back on track.

I need to find a way to curb my sugary cravings, though I am not sure how to do it. I've read somewhere before that by eating more fruits and such you eventually don't crave the packaged sugars (cupcakes, etc.), but I do, and I eat them. Obviously, not the large nasty high fat ones, but never the less I eat it. 1 point cupcakes and 1 point cookies, etc. But I think if I could figure out a way to stop craving these I could be in a better place. My weakness is like now, between 8 and 11 pm, I don't know how to stay out of the kitchen. Even if I do well most of the evening, I will end up there at some point and then I over do it while I am in there.

I've got a lot of work to do to get to my personal goal, and give myself a little bit of a cushion with WW. I believe I can, but sometimes I just don't seem to have the motivation to get there.

Any ideas???

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

BLAH! How do you stay away....

After last nights profound post, I wake up this morning in the worst mood. I'm tired, feeling sorry for myself and hating the world! What is that?

It's funny, Roni posted about having a fat day, and let me tell you that's how I feel today. FAT! Out of control and ruining myself. Wow, such the pity party, huh?

My question to Roni, and all of you...

How do you stay away from the snack cabinet, knowing you're already OVER your points for the day, your NOT hungry, but you must have those snacks because they taste SO good? Before you know it you've eaten 10 points in useless snacks!

That's how my week has been. Any ideas?

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Ebay Junkie!

I think I've finally come to terms with acceptance, subconsciously. I keep telling myself that I need to work on this and work on that, I keep "trying " to lose more weight, and keep buying new exercise programs (I purchased the 10 minute Trainer after all). But more importantly I keep buying clothes!

I don't kno if it's the fact that I am completely addicted to ebay, or that I am subconsciously happy with myself exactly where I am. I recently bought 8 pairs of jeans! If I were to continue to lose weight or inches these jeans wouldn't fit me for much longer. HOWEVER, I have basically been this weight for nearly 10 months now, so I'm thinking that my subconscious knows more than I do.

As much as I would LOVE to firm up my belly area, I think I am happy! I get excited to get dressed, even just casual. Because for the first time in my life I look in the mirror and go "ooh, I look so cute in this!" Instead of "yeah, that'll do."

I went to the chiropractor today. My back and hip were killing me (can't stand for more than 15 minutes at a time). And he told me I hold all my stress in my back. My back is one big knot. He did some evaluations, and xrays, and I have to go back tomorrow to discuss treatment. I am also going to go to the massage therapist next week. I remember 2 years ago when I slipped my disc I went to both and felt great as long as I continued to exercise. Well I slipped my disc again last summer, and didn't do the chiro and MT, and now I am a big mess. So hopefully I feel better soon.

My new 10 minute trainer should be here in like 5 business days. SO excited! Can't wait to begin!

Food front hasn't been that great this week. I have been snacking uncontrollably! So I am afraid to see the scale tomorrow, but we'll see. Hopefully it's fixable. Wish me luck!

Alright enough for now, good night ya'll!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Has anyone tried 10 Minute Trainer?

I am looking to buy yet another exercise program. (I'm a sucker for infomercials ;) ) I'm looking at Tony horton's 10 minute trainer, but I'm finding it hard to find any reviews. I found some, but I usually like to look over quite a few before I invest THAT much money. Based on my experience with Jillian Michaels 30 day shred, I most positive that I will enjoy it and it will work.

Jillian's program does basically the same thing, very fast paced, simple exercises that kick your butt in a short time. Jillian's program is 20 minutes, and Tony's is 10 (or 20 or 30 your choice). So I really want to check it out.

All I really want to do is tone up, maybe lose a few inches in the belly area. Losing pounds is just icing. With Jillian's program I lost 2.5 inches the first week, so I'm hoping this program has the same concept.

Anyone out there have any info on this program?

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

How the hell?

That's all I can come up with. How the hell do you; not write anything down, eat as you please (in moderation of course), don't exercise, or even move for that matter, and still manage to lose 2 pounds? Not that I am complaining, but...

However, the 2 pounds I lost, were the 2 pounds that I gained the week before last.

But either way, I lost, that's the point here. So it's back on track tomorrow. Now I can't exercise this week, until I get my stitches out on Monday, but it'll all work out.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Sorry to be away so long...

I've had a tough two weeks. The week leading up to my surgery was a little stressful and I think I ate myself calm. Then the week following my surgery, with nothing to do, again I ate. So, tomorrow I weigh in and see how much damage I did. BUT, having a couple of weeks "off" may have done something for me. Now I can get back on the horse and think nothing of my hiatus.

I get my stitches out on Monday the 28th, I'll find out then when I can exercise again. Hopefully the next day. I can't wait!

I also promised myself a massage to relieve all the pain and awkwardness I've endured trying to compensate for sitting and sleeping. My surgery was to remove a cyst near my tailbone. So my hip and back are killing me.

I'll fill you in tomorrow on the damage. Good night for now.

Friday, July 11, 2008

I was tagged..

I was tagged the other day by Tall Mama, so here are my random things about my self...

1) I'm a graphic designer, but I recently graduated from community college with an associate's degree in biotechnology. And I am still in school, pursuing my bachelor's degree in biology with a concentration in laboratory medicine.

2) I'm obsessed with my diet and exercise. I totally bore people by talking about it all the time (it's probably the only thing I talk about; my sister says I need to consult a psychiatrist).

3) I was raised in NJ but went to high school in Hilton Head, SC.

4) I am very close to my step-daughter's mother.

5) I read every night.

6) I LOVE home improvement shows on TLC.

And one for the road...

7) I am addicted to ebay!

So there you have it. I would love to pass on the tags, but I don't have that many "friends" on my blog yet.

Have a good night, ya'll.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I don't know what to think...

...of my 2 pound weight gain. I'm thinking it's muscle (or just hoping), since I haven't gained any inches, I've actually lost another quarter of an inch off my thigh.

I have started exercising regularly again, for the first time since last July. So, since I have exercised 5 days this week , and 6 days last week, I'm putting my money on muscle.

And also decided to be more careful this week, and kick my 1 a day diet pepsi habit I have recently picked up. Stupid addictive personality. LOL

That's all for now.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Heading for disaster

I did it already. On my way home from work yesterday I felt a weird tingly, sharp pain feeling shooting down the back of my left leg, so I didn't exercise (and felt horrible about it). Then later in the evening I get a phone call from my cousin to come over on Wednesday for cake for her son's 8th birthday. Now I won't get to exercise AND there will be cake (one of my "I can't say no" foods). AND Wednesday is my weigh in night. The only thing I can come up with is try very, very hard to say no to the cake, and exercise after I get back from WW (which will be like 8pm).

Also, on the food front, not so good. Having off so many days really screws up my eating. I went way over my points a few days. NOT GOOD!! And last night was out of control. I just wanted something sweet to eat, and didn't have anything, so I just kept eating around it. But Sunday really put me over, ending the day eating 35 points worth (I'm only allotted 21). I did exercise but, I don't know.

Now I'm babbling. We'll see what happens tomorrow. Wish me luck...

Sunday, July 6, 2008

WOW, I just noticed

After I clicked the publish button on the bikini picture, I viewed my blog and was looking at my pictures. The bikini picture was taken on June 28th (2 days after I started the 30 day shred) and my NOW picture was taken on July 3rd (7 days after starting), take a look at my shoulders and arms. All I can say is WOW. What a difference. Now do you believe me that this program works???

That dreaded bikini...

I said I would post my BEFORE 30 Day Shred picture in a bikini. And as much as I am not looking forward to posting my flaws online, I said I would. I hope this program works as well as I think it's going to or posting this is going to be embarassing....

As you can see my trouble spot is just above my navel (or rather where my navel SHOULD be). Even though I have not had any kids my body seems to want to burden me with the dreaded belly problem. And my thighs could use some work.

My goal with this program is to tackle these 2 areas. Already I feel a difference. But I don't think they're visible yet.

Also, seeing as how I can't complete the program in the 30 days as described in other posts. What I am going to do is, work the program in 21 days rather than 30 (since I go in for surgery on the 16th), then after I am healed and can exercise again, I am going to start the program over again for the 30 days.

I have been very conscious of my eating during this process. Finding new and wonderful recipes from Roni's website (, and

Wish me luck...

Thursday, July 3, 2008

This REALLY works!

Ok, so last week we talked about me purchasing the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. I began the program on Thursday last week. I logged my beginning measurements, and weight; and made a chart to log which days I exercised and which level I did.

After 1 week, I did Jillian's 30 day shred 6 days this week (taking Saturday off to go to the shore), I ate my normal WW diet and tracked my food, and the results: I lost 1 pound and 2.75 inches! How freaking fantastic is that!!!

However, I do have ONE PROBLEM! I can't do the full 30 days. I can only do 20 days, because on July 16th I am having surgery to remove a cyst from my back, after which I can't exercise for a while. Totally bumming!

But I figure after I am able to begin exercising again, I can start the program again. I am hoping to lose at least 5-10 pounds doing this, but losing the inches is more exciting. I have some excess skin on my belly area, and need to tighten it up. So far I lost 1.5 inches off my waist alone, so this program is ideal for me.

I promise to get that picture up soon! (Kind of procrastinating as long as I can. LOL)

So you all need to check out Jillian's 30 day shred! It really works!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

On the road again...

Everyone says that this weight loss process is a journey complete with detours. And how SO true! However, I have finally left the detour and I'm back on the road again.

Last week, after my horrid 4.5 pound gain, I somehow obtained this awesome new motivation to work the program. And after changing my food options, paying closer attention to what I was eating, and being accountable for my choices, in two short weeks I have lost that nasty 4 pounds that I gained.

NOW, being back on the straight road, I am continuing my consciousness to the program. I purchased Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred, and excitedly began it today! Beware, it totally KICKS your ASS! But welcomely. I plan to follow her program for 30 days and see what happens. I will post my before picture shortly. I figure to post my picture wearing the bikini (yes I said bikini) that I bought to wear to the shore. This way you can see every flaw I have. And then at the end of the 30 days (which is July 26) I will post my after picture wearing the same bikini. According to the DVD you could lose up to 20 pounds in the 30 days. You do the program 6 days a week, it's 27 minutes of uninterrupted kick ass exercise. There are no breaks, not even enough time to take a sip of water. And even though I exercise regularly it totally knocked on my butt, my muscles were shaking for AT LEAST 30 minutes after ward.

So fingers crossed that it works as well as I think it will or I'm posting myself in a bikini for nothing! LOL!

Monday, June 16, 2008

Yep I was right!!!

As I guessed I was up 4.5 pounds last week. So as I mentioned I added another WW meeting on Saturday. After my Wednesday meeting I was ready to lose that horrid 4.5 pounds THIS WEEK! Surprisingly even by Friday afternoon I was still really excited about working the plan this week.

Thursday after work I did 45 minutes of pilates (was totally NOT in the mood to do step). Then Friday did my grocery shopping for the week, AFTER spending a few hours on the internet finding new healthful recipes. Saturday I got up and out of the house by 7:45, went for a 75 minute walk, complete with hills. After that went to a WW meeting, and left there and went to the gym for an hour (30 minutes on the treadmill at a faster speed and higher incline than normal; and 30 minutes of weight training). I continued to eat pretty well on Saturday, but we went out with some friends and I had 2 light beers and 2 shots of tequila rose (by my calculations that is 6 points). Sunday was a little more difficult. Had to spend Father's day with my family and my husbands family, so had to eat at both houses. Unfortunately, I went over by 15 points (but still within my 35 flex points).

Back on good schedule today though! And I will exercise when I get home, even though every muscle in my body is calling me all kinds of names!

I think I may have done REALLY well this week. We'll find out on Wednesday night. Cross your fingers for me!!!!

Moral: When in doubt about your progress, add another meeting. We are like alcoholics, when we are tempted we need to go to a meeting and get our perspective back!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Long time...Need Help!!

It's been an EXTREMELY long time since I blogged! But I need some major help>>>>

I don't know what my problem is. I am completely and utterly unmotivated lately. My leader keeps saying that I'm not because I've made it this far (97 pounds). But this week I gained 3 pounds I think (I get weighed tonight). And that's the wrong way!!!!

I need to lose 10 more pounds before the fall. I just bought a bunch of new jeans that are just a tad too small, but the next size up is too big. So I don't think that should be too hard, but how do I turn my ass around and get back on the horse?

I had talked to my WW buddy last week and I think maybe adding another WW meeting to my week might help, but I'm not sure. So I think this week I am going to try adding an extra meeting in (like Saturday morning). Most of the time after I leave my meeting I'm all geared up to do the right thing, and I do until the weekend. So I'm thinking that adding Saturday morning will stop me from overdoing my weekends!

But this has got to stop! It's like during the week, I'm really careful and plan my points, etc. And even on Fridays, when we eat out, I still plan my points and eat accordingly. It's saturday and sunday that go completely to hell. It's like I think to myself, oh it isn't going to hurt me to have this half of a cheesesteak (for lunch) and the same day, say it's ok to have this cheeseburger (for dinner), and then keep going until Monday morning. Well then I completely screwed my whole week, ya know.



Thanks for listening to me rant!!!

Monday, April 7, 2008

I feel great

I am proud to announce that after many months (since July) of not exercising, I exercised 3 times so far this week! And I feel really great. Not only did I exercise, but I did more in one session than I ever did before.

I do The Firm, and I absolutely love and endorse it! However, it really kicks your butt, that's why I like it, but because of that I have never done it for more than 30 minutes. The average DVD is 60 minutes. But last night, after having a not so great day (a slice of pizza and a piece of cake), I did 45 minutes. 45 minutes of this tape for me is 6 points. Yes, I did it this long to counter how many points I went over. But I felt great for doing it.

And tomorrow after work I will do another 45 minutes, maybe even the whole hour. Can't wait! I love exercising, and I am glad I am getting it back into my routine!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Up, Up & Away...

As I expected, i gained 1.8 pounds. However, I'm not disappointed. I am going to keep my enthusiasm, and tomorrow I am going to come home and exercise. I swear!!!! When I got home tonight I made a huge batch of Garden Vegetable Soup, to take for lunch, and maybe have with my dinner tomorrow. I've never made it before, but I think it'll be good.

Yesterday, I came home from work and was supposed to exercise, but I was so excited to make this cheesecake recipe that I found, I completely forgot to exercise. I thought I ruined the cheesecake, because the top of it looked "toasted" almost like a meringue. But I put it in the fridge anyway. Today when I came home, before WW, I sliced some fresh strawberries, and sprinkled them with splenda. After dinner tonight, I had a piece of the cheesecake topped with some strawberries. IT WAS AWESOME! I'm not much of a baker, and I've never made a baked cheesecake before. And was pleasantly surprised that it came out really good. 3 points a slice, not too bad, and definitely worth it. Next week I'm going to try an Angel Lush Cake.

This week I am going to concentrate more on what I eat. And why, and when. I need to stop eating just because I'm bored. Granted I am definitely not eating the crap I would have eaten before, but I am still eating too much. And those marshmallow bunnies, and peanut butter eggs aren't doing me any favors!

Wish me luck!

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

New Blog

Hello out there. I'm new to this blog forum, so I wanted to introduce myself. I usually blog on, because that's why I blog. I am 30 years old and on Weight Watchers. As of last week I've lost 96 pounds. According to WW I have 11 pounds to go! However, this was the topic of my last blog...

I look at myself and can't see how 11 pounds is going to be enough. I know I just need to tone but I am having a heck of a time getting back to exercising. I work 10 hours a day, and have 3 classes this semester, so time is hard to come by. By the time I get home from work, I am tired, and hungry. I am trying to get at least 2 days a week in. My goal today is to go home and exercise. I can't think about it...I just have to do it!!!

I am having a pretty hard time with my motivation right now. I think I had the winter blues. But thankfully spring is finally coming. Watch tomorrow will be rediculously cold or something. I feel much better and excited when it's warm and the sun is shining. Like I can conquer the world! Ya know what I mean?

I have a tendency to babble, and not be very witty, so I'm sorry for those new to my blog. I'm working on it I swear!

Well last week I had a HUGE 4 pound loss, but I think I gained it all back this week. I let go of all the rules this weekend! I got attacked by the Easter Bunny, and went out with the husband, and after waiting for 1 hour before our waitress FINALLY showed up (we went to a sports bar to watch Wrestlemania), I was pissed off, and lost all inhibitions and ordered potato skins! UGH!!

So needless to say, it will be a bad week on the weight front!